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Man Ray
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This week has been…interesting, to say the least. Work was crazy with my assistant getting a promotion and my print shop trying to play catch up with all the work I’ve been falling behind with. Not to mention me deciding to tell this woman, who I’ve been friends with for a few years, that I like her. I lost a couple nights sleep leading up to that one. Long story short, she only likes me as a friend, but don’t worry because I’ll be the first to know if her feelings do change. If only that was possible. Oh right, can’t forget about the times when I talk myself out of falling for another woman in my life who I shouldn’t even be considering as anything more than a friend. And since all good things happen in threes, the final woman I find myself having a great connection with, is way out of reach…like way way out of reach.
At least the end of the week was pretty awesome. I got to DJ for a private event for some tech people in town. It wasn’t a huge turnout, but it was super fun. I received many compliments on my set list and mixing abilities, someone even wanted a mixdown of my entire 3 hour set. The longest set I’ve ever done, by the way. I may be DJing a few more gigs this year because of this one. Below is a video a friend of mine made of the event.
All in all, this week was interesting and despite the lady situations, life is pretty great right now.
“Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things.” — Robert Brault
I read todays entry and I wish there was something I could do. I see you hurting and I wish I could just hug everything better. Unfortunately, life does not work like that. So many things I wish I did different. The only thing I can do now is wish that things get better and you find happiness.
-CS-
I thought of you again today. We haven’t really talked in a while and I don’t like that. I can’t blame you though because it’s all my fault. You were the best thing that has happened to me in a while and I will always regret what I did. I can’t turn back time, I can’t change what I said, I can’t make you like me again. All I can do is learn from this experience and try not to mess things up with the next girl.
I don’t think you actually know how long it took me to find someone like you and I’m not sure how much longer it will take me to find someone I like as much as I like you. Yes, I still like you. You may think otherwise because of what I said that night. I was scared. Really scared. You made my heart happy and I was afraid you would break it like the girls before you. So I did the thing I do best, buried myself in my work. I’m sorry I never gave us a chance. I never gave you a chance.
I’m trying my hardest to move on, but it doesn’t help that I get that nervous feeling every time I see you or read your tweet/facebook statuses. Even though I know you’ll never see this post, expressing my feelings is making me feel better. Well, I guess this is it. Now it is time to stop typing and start living.
-CS-
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